News Silence

So no one's going to talk about how Geary Street was shut down yesterday due to the Bomb Squad?

Ok San Francisco. I see how it is.

Happiness List 2

I love it when people do a nice thing for me unexpectedly.

Like how did my roommate know I wanted a beer tonight? I've been stressed out like crazy this week, and I come home tonight thinking, "Man, all I want is a Newcastle." And he comes home with a bottle!!

Awesome.

Why Today Was a Perverted Day

Today I helped Ja Ha out by agreeing to be in her photo shoot. This morning she takes me to the roof of her apartment building to set up the location shots. The views were amazing; it was a panoramic view of west San Francisco. Ja Ha suddenly points out that there's a couch next to the doorway leading out onto the roof.

But then I see it.
Me: Is that... a bottle of K.Y. next to the couch?

Upon closer inspection we also find a clear shower curtain and towels next to the couch. And it wasn't a bottle of K.Y. It was baby oil.

Ja Ha: Oh God, I don't even wanna know what goes on up here.



Later, we get breakfast at a place called Eddie's on Divisadero. It is a popular hole-in-the-wall Mom and Pop restaurant. It's also very cheap, so a college student haven.
This particular day sees some weird characters come in. Next to us a 60-something man sits down with a 20-something latina female. We get perved out. Obviously he is not Daddy Warbucks if he's taking his "date" to Eddie's so...

Gross.

Our final discovery is the funniest. Japeksha and I are changing into our outfits in Ja Ha's room. Japek suddenly needs Ja Ha's eyeshadow, so she begins rumaging through the boxes on Ja Ha's desk. Some are art supplies, and another was a box of coins.

Suddenly, she giggles.

Me: What is it?
Japeksha: (Holding up box slyly) Well I just found a shitload of condoms... Heh heh heh.

Making Amends

Sometimes it just takes that final push or shove or straw breaking. To finally get it over with, make the first step and apologize. And surprisingly... it went smoothly. All three times.

I feel good. And I hope that now my karma has evened out.



Some other things though, are hopeless. For now.


Oh Curtis, you'd be proud and a little disappointed in me now. I hope that you are being good. There's a lot of crap flying around now about certain people and certain laws, a lot of hate, but I still believe in you.

A lot of people in California deserve this Right Now

History

Personal issues are put aside at this moment.

Tonight I have witnessed history. I have listened to a great man with a message that was so influential, so monumental... words can't describe it.

The moment didn't seem so important. There was a chicken burrito on the coffee table, beer bottles laying around, feet on the furniture. I wasn't in an auditorium, I wasn't with a huge party watching a large feed. It was just me and my roommate relaxing together after our stressful day. It may not seem glamorous, but when I look back and remember this moment I will be so grateful my roommate was there to share it with me. He may not know it, but I was glad--am glad-- a person like him was in my life.

We didn't even see it coming. We scanned the news stations trying to understand what was going on. And then there is was! No pomp, no fanfare... just the words "Obama wins the electoral vote." We weren't even sure it was true at that point!

His speech was just so eloquent and was it me or did it ring? I can only parallel it with MLK Jr.'s 'I Have A Dream' speech. Every word and nuance had a meaning and I felt it vibrate with importance. I had goosebumps!

Today had been very hard. I am going through sadness and a lot of anger. But tonight I find myself filled with hope after seeing his acceptance speech.

The problems I have are nothing facing Obama and our nation. This tough time will pass. I have had a shower of support from my friends and I will support my nation. I look forward to my future now. It is a future of uncertainty but I am looking forward to it. There certainly are no strings tied to me now. There can be more tough times, there may be more people that hurt me. But I have family that love me. I have friends that will get my back.

I'm ready now. I want to let go of this pain and get ready for the future. Little by little it has been happening.

Let's do this.

Can I Be THAT Girl?

I am feeling hurt and confused right now.

You know what doesn't help?

That g.d. teacher that marked me down 8 points for one mistake-- omitting the C M Y K letters on a printed project-- will not let me redo it to raise my grade. (Which is standard practice at the g.d. corporate art school that I attend!!) Proving she plays favourites and confirms I am definitely on the opposite end.

And everyone hates our department and bitches when we use the elevator, even though we can't go from the first floor to the second without first walking down to the basement, over, up to the first and THEN to the second feel the need to complain IN OUR COMPUTER LAB on OUR FLOOR about us... You know what graphic design kids? Go do some more blow, you're looking sober.

Yes, these things exacerbated a problem that arose today.

EVERYONE NEEDS A PUNCH IN THE FACE TODAY.

GAAAAAAAAAAAH.